Wake! I'm getting something new
I'm fighting over fighting over you.
You say that it's ok
But I know what that means
I must have stolen it there from a thief
Next in line?
But in the end it's only you
Who defines what his love means
Say "like" to someone who loves you
More than lust could fake, I knew
I wish I had done all you wanted me to
But I can't be as heartless as you
Wake! I'm getting something new
I'm getting over getting over you
Yes, that's a no, I said
These days are done for me I'm afraid
It's just a suicide day
Or "Mr. Lennon?" hour
And this is my dilemma now
Say "like" to someone who loves you
More than lust could fake, I knew
I wish I had done all you wanted me to
But I can't be as heartless as you
Just remember the one who loved you
My other self would say so much
But now that the only side you'll see is sober
You do what you can 'til it's over
And I'll do what I can 'til it's over over over
In Eyes Whispers Lie
September 2006
I remember staring into your eyes
They ran deep and dark
Speak of all I could be in your life
You'd whisper things of torturing
I don't mind, just as long you're satisfied
Stay right here, just before my eyes
Pills, they offer craze
Taken forty times a day they can't create
What ain't here when I'm awake
Coating all I do is the absence of you
And the hearts beat faster,
Her taste - never sweeter,
With a breath never deeper,
Brings to life...
Stay right here, just for the night
Someday (I Won't Be)
2006
2am and driving
Eyes let down and dying
Night's cold and eyes colder
Take a breath
Take myself
Because nothing's left
And I lay in bed and wonder
How are you this day?
Can i dream of you?
So perfect, together in disarray
But you're too far away now
Dreaming again, I see
But someday, I won't be
Set myself up again
To be let down, and taken down
Oh it's coming around
I'm not alone but I should be
By this time next time
Yeah, next time
I'm here with you
Right here with you
But someday
Someday I won't be
Dear Unknown
2005
Dear Unknown,
I've waited so long for you here now
Imagine the day when we know how
The story goes
Thus I gather here and stay awake
To prevent dreaming of you
Now a healthy absence
And a silent stillness
Prevents dreaming of you
Some time has passed
But you're still my source
Of life, and drive, and woe
And hello bereavement
Dreams come rescue me
Put an end to this day
Consider me the least original
But the one who cares
Consider me the one who waits
But dies waiting
Is This What You Mean
2004
Is this what you mean by love
When you run away?
Is this what you mean by love
When you say my name?
Is this what you mean by real
When you let it die?
And what's left of us
Withers away
Don't gather your thoughts
Because we're all the same
Atonal wreckage
This once-perfect harmony dies
You say it's happening again
Can you feel it now, stealing our days
Piercing my thoughts with words of truth
With the same voice that I once knew as you
Places
2002
Always wanted the best
To live a life among the rest
Yet with none I'm impressed
Still I search where it's shone
So many faults to find
All of which are my kind
For gold once mined
Would be away thrown
And my pain
Is causing me to stay the same
All my life and my ways
Are leading me to a better place
In another place
Aging
2002
If I could amend the years
I'd start with my earliest tears
Attaining all the same fears
And remembering my debts
Forgetting all my loans
Confiding not on my own
Emerging with something unknown
Life without regrets
And the ways of our pastime,
And the days in our lifetime,
And the strays for whom it's wartime,
These all I have herein striven
Are we all here not forgiven
For this we all pay within
Always wanted the best
to live a life among the rest
Yet with none I'm impressed
Still I search where it's shone
So many faults to find
All of which are my kind
For gold once mined
Would be away thrown
All of my life
I'll deny this sickness
All-engaging
All of my life
I'll die from this sickness
Mind-enraging
Changes
2001
Is this it? Is this where I've made it
The least I can do is my best, and I hate it
Searching for a sign
My eyes are blind
Yielding all state of mind
Leaving my thoughts behind...
If I could live my life for another day, would my life change?
Indescribable Everything
2000
It's the simple things
That I adore in you,
My indescribable everything
I cannot see it any other way
For what it's worth
You're worth my all
I want to feel your every move
Move with me
You are my indescribable everything
It's the simple things
That I adore in you
The way you walk
The things you say
The way you move
Your perfect hair
Gracefully falls on your face
And once I'm there, I can't escape
Take me to that place so far away
That we know so well
Show me your love like I know you can
Genuineness
1999
What I do means nil to me
Genuineness, my longing
I give my all to a valid plea
In search of this vague reality
I am stilled by my wronging
Longing for truth
Painting this picture as my portrait
Yet my eyes are blind
Reality, as certainty
A law in itself
Questioning, inquiring
To no prevail
And now I fold